I don’t feel proud with what I’m doing lately

I don’t feel proud with what I’m doing lately… reason being, calling yourself a keeper… but you don’t really keep what you should keep, you sold your soul for name and pride… what’s left to proud of?

I know there’s a reason… but why trade your soul… why threw away our dignity? Just to look good at the outside… But nothing in the inside…

And I saw few people around me, sold their soul… losing their faith… become another person… Just because it’s the easiest way to play safe… it’s the easiest way to mark your place… it’s the fastest way to reach your destination… and it’s sad me…

Tell me.. let me know

Tell me… Do you feel proud with what you do everyday… Do you wake up everyday feeling content and can’t wait to live the day?

Tell me… Do you happy, sincerely happy… and able to speak out your mind, stand on what you believe to… and concede when it’s the right thing to do…

Tell me… does your smile really sincere… does your heart pure… tell me love, how you perceive this world… full of love or full of hatred and deceiving… Let me know.. What your heart really wants… power, happiness, money or love…

Tak sihat lagi..

Batuk-batuk.. batuk seratus hari.. masih berpuluh-puluh hari sebelum sembuh sepenuhnya.

Sakit gigi minggu lepas.. pegi klinik gigi semalam.. jumpa dentist.. cuma diberi 2 pilihan - cabut atau buat root canal treatment.. since it's a permanent tooth.. I choose second option.. melayang RM400- oh! sedih...memandangkan dah dekat hujung bulan ni. :( nasib baik boleh claim.. harap-harapnya...

Sekarang.. gigi dah tak sakit lagi.. poket je sakit.. cepat-cepatlah masuk gaji sebelum demam lagi. haha!!

not feeling good..

I'm not feeling well..but cant afford to take leave or mc, too much things to do this whole week until next week. fever and cold.

Hopefully I can start to take my leave starting by end of this month. I need a fag break..

Let's go the zoo and do some gotong-royong

Finally… my dream came true. I managed to go to national zoo last weekend. Oh yeah.. I was planning to visit the zoo since the first day I’m in Klang Valley... and that was 7 years ago… and finally after 3 years graduated from University- I get to make it happened. Now I can cross one item in my things-to-do-before-u-die list – I know it sounds odd a bit but try to live with that k.

And credit to Fara for telling us about gotong royong in zoo Negara on last Sunday.
And it’s been a while since my last gotong-royong- the last gotong royong I remembered was back in secondary school.

We registered earlier.. actually fara did, she registered me, her, her zul, and Alice for the event. We went there quite late because of raining that morning.. suppose to be there on 7 but we arrived around 8.

We were assigned to clean this buffalo park belongs to a male buffalo name Anoa (credit to Fara for correcting this) Anoa is a Sulawesi buffalo if I’m right. I was hoping for something more exciting actually like brushing the crocodile teeth or shampooing the lion hair... that would be more fun ait? But yeahh.. Nevertheless we had fun do some cleaning for Anwar the buffy. He should thanks us… and I guess maybe sometimes we will pay a visit to him again in the near future or maybe I’ll go to another zoo pulak.

New Work part II - moving fast

I moved on again... This time with new job, not Xybase anymore- I moved on with Entellium- one of the companies that I was trying to get in many times before- and finally managed to squeeze my ass into the company last February.

What’s new here- or still have the same feeling like in eWarna or Xybase?

There is the same feeling for eWarna and Xybase here and there. The working culture and more like mix and match of Xybase and eWarna in a good way. The work is more like Xybase- where there are tonnes of work to do everyday and I’m very busy keeping myself to catch up with the whole things.

the company culture is more like eWarna where u are allowed to wear casual dress like jeans and t-shirt to work, flexibility is there for you to do your work- you may come late, finish your task and may go home.. but unfortunately there’s never a time I’m in here without any work in a day.  it’s good thing tho’ – at least u know you’re working.

and yes.. pretty glad to land here. :)

New Work - still slow-moving

Previous post is about life. Now let’s talk about work.
Currently just finished with test cases and now start looking at test scenario. Once the developer starts to deploy the system in the test server, I guest T&I team can start the testing.
Now we quite laid back... nothing to chase. But I believe later, there will be dateline to chase since the developers already crossed the dateline.
Working on the UTM project now…

New life - still struggling.

It’s been almost two weeks I’m here Xybase. Everything changes for sure. No more easy life style that I used to have when working with eWarna. Now, I have to wake up 6.00 am to take bath, wear clothes (ironed the night before) and rush to LRT station. Life is totally changed compare last time where my morning will start at 7.45 or 8 am. Some morning exercise, breakfast with half boiled eggs, thinking about which jeans and t-shirt should I be wearing today…watching morning show to get some updates and go to work…no hassle!! - but that’s history.

I’m still in the early stage. Still trying to get used to new things lately. Sure there are lots of thing to learn here. Lots of thing to ponder too. I’m happy to be here but at the same time still missing those time in eWarna. :D, who doesn’t eh.. after two years, now my routine is changed. But life is about changes.. That’s life. You can’t hope everything will be the same forever. There will be time where u need to change – And I guess my time has come.

Different friends, different environment, different people… different working culture.
Just wish me luck.. ;)

kecewa: class started like 2 weeks ago.

How come we are not be informed that class has started like 2 weeks ago..
duhh.. and I heard that there will be no more morning class. all will be at night.
erk! How I'm going to travel from Shah Alam to Wangsa Maju after class..
pening-pening...

hearmeconfess

Ok, here's a little confession from me. I'm hungry. urghhh!! but then, luckly me got apple. huhuh.
What today agenda? beside that load test testing that I'm working on.. just talk to McEr about her housewarming this July 15th 2006. Hope things will go smooth as we sail to the day. Hopefully Shida can make it. and still I have to inform few frens about this lah.. almost forget.